A Moment of love

Yeah...that song...I knew it...I remember it..I remember her eyes...her beautiful eyes...I remember her smile..."the song still going"

I remember the last time we met...she was happy..happy as if the world has decided to claim her a queen over it...and I couldn't know is her being a queen makes her more happy or the idea that she own the world then give it all to me makes her happier...

"the song goes:" why can't we be alone for a day and forget all about others"

I remember her telling me that nothing could ever make her love me less...nothing in the world is greater than a pure feeling that change everything around you...change how you look to the flowers...we don't love them because they are pretty...we love them because they reflect the true colors of happiness...we love them because they make us see all colors of feelings

"I,my love, feel new thing filling me inside"

then I touched her lips...I just want her to stop speaking...I was so confused...I didn't know what was more enjoyable to me...her pretty face that absorb all my hate converting it into love and filling it back to me...or her pretty voice that goes through every nerve in my body making it lose all its physics and go to the world of souls....



"you are here at my side...you are the most precious to me"

In a moment I realized that it is not love...it is not that feeling that attach people to each other without knowing the reason...it is not that feeling that makes your heart go crazy when you see your lovers eyes...it is not that feeling that makes you laugh when she laughes...or cry when she cries..it is something that can't be described in words...it is something that I can never live without...it is something that actually lives inside you....inside your mind...your heart

Everything you see...you would love to find a resemblance between it and her....everything you hear reminds you with the words she said to you....everything you need is just there when she is beside you...that is not love...that is a basic need that you will die if you didn't reach for

"why I stop to say her name...whenever I say it I feel free"

Like a ghost

The Coldness inside me
is so unexpected

The darkness of the thoughts
is so unpredicted

I feel like a ghost.....ghost has been lost...through the insanity of life.......

like a ghost that nobody sees
like a ghost everyone fears
like a ghost ...has been lost...between thoughts and memories

Searching all around....trying to find me
Shouting in te crowd....the crowd is so busy
I can't even touch their hands...only see the souls....how dark they became...that all my love falls

like a ghost that nobody sees
like a ghost everyone fears
like a ghost ...has been lost...between thoughts and memories

The coldness inside me....I got used to it
the darkness of thoughts....now I believe in it
And I will suffer no more...I won't care about anything...I will be without a soul...I won't give a shit..

I will be a ghost around...that will make everyone fear...
I will be a damned curse...that will hurt anyone near...
and when I am done and I am alone....I will wonder how happiness would feel like.........

What is the purpose?

Just the idea of being alive makes me think...what is the real purpose behind that?...is it just the search for happyiness?...is it living around for searching for unknown thing to fill your void and make yourself feel complete?..is it just the quest for answers of these questions that always bug your mind making you can't sleep at night?

I believe that we are here for a purpose...all these things were created for us...It can't be logical that our Creator made us superior than every other being just for the sake of creating different things...He made us for a reason...maybe for the experience of how a free thinking being will behave...will his free controlled mind lead him to the truth?...or will lead him away?...will he know his real God..? or will he keep inventing gods for himself to feel that he has done his role as a good worshiper?

Then another point jumps in my mind...why all human beings throughout history have been searching for a god...not only to know who created them...but for a god to lead them...to be the purpose of their life...some chose money as a god....some chose fame as a god...even some chose the female reproductive organ for a god...all of them trying to find a god to satisfy the need he most want...and that was the begining of humans going to the wrong directions

it is not logical to use logic and instinct to create something that is not a fact...Our Creator gave us the mind and the logic to use it for developing our life...not to argue the facts that He created for us...we always say:"Don't reinvent the wheel" and troughout the time we are trying to reinvent our life....our instincts and rearranging them in a different way...thinking like that it will be better...

Actually we are all searching ,inventing ,playing all for the same question....for the same idea...for the same feeling...What is the purpose of our life?....does it worth being lived? or just like any other being in our world..............

if you can't know your purpose or your goals in life....know that you are already dead....

W..

WHY

At a moment in my restless thoughts…I decided that I have to share…share these unexpected ideas that invade my mind...share the good and the bad...the bright and the dark...
I can't say that I am good person...or bad person...but I just know one thing...I know I am creative...I know I am smart...I know that a lot of what cross my mind is not ordinary things..it is different...controversial...sometime so genius...sometimes very stupid...but I believe that noone can handle all of these thoughts alone in his mind...in his heart..That is why I have to share...please read with pure soul...because what I am about to post will be sometimes...
UNTHINKABLE...