Like a ghost

The Coldness inside me
is so unexpected

The darkness of the thoughts
is so unpredicted

I feel like a ghost.....ghost has been lost...through the insanity of life.......

like a ghost that nobody sees
like a ghost everyone fears
like a ghost ...has been lost...between thoughts and memories

Searching all around....trying to find me
Shouting in te crowd....the crowd is so busy
I can't even touch their hands...only see the souls....how dark they became...that all my love falls

like a ghost that nobody sees
like a ghost everyone fears
like a ghost ...has been lost...between thoughts and memories

The coldness inside me....I got used to it
the darkness of thoughts....now I believe in it
And I will suffer no more...I won't care about anything...I will be without a soul...I won't give a shit..

I will be a ghost around...that will make everyone fear...
I will be a damned curse...that will hurt anyone near...
and when I am done and I am alone....I will wonder how happiness would feel like.........

What is the purpose?

Just the idea of being alive makes me think...what is the real purpose behind that?...is it just the search for happyiness?...is it living around for searching for unknown thing to fill your void and make yourself feel complete?..is it just the quest for answers of these questions that always bug your mind making you can't sleep at night?

I believe that we are here for a purpose...all these things were created for us...It can't be logical that our Creator made us superior than every other being just for the sake of creating different things...He made us for a reason...maybe for the experience of how a free thinking being will behave...will his free controlled mind lead him to the truth?...or will lead him away?...will he know his real God..? or will he keep inventing gods for himself to feel that he has done his role as a good worshiper?

Then another point jumps in my mind...why all human beings throughout history have been searching for a god...not only to know who created them...but for a god to lead them...to be the purpose of their life...some chose money as a god....some chose fame as a god...even some chose the female reproductive organ for a god...all of them trying to find a god to satisfy the need he most want...and that was the begining of humans going to the wrong directions

it is not logical to use logic and instinct to create something that is not a fact...Our Creator gave us the mind and the logic to use it for developing our life...not to argue the facts that He created for us...we always say:"Don't reinvent the wheel" and troughout the time we are trying to reinvent our life....our instincts and rearranging them in a different way...thinking like that it will be better...

Actually we are all searching ,inventing ,playing all for the same question....for the same idea...for the same feeling...What is the purpose of our life?....does it worth being lived? or just like any other being in our world..............

if you can't know your purpose or your goals in life....know that you are already dead....

W..