I was walking on that river....that beautiful river...at sunset...the last rays of the sun touching smoothly the surface of the water....birds saluting the sun by their singing harmony...clouds are not white any more....they are grey blocking the sun and letting the last rays to survive
Then I realized that this image so resembles something I have always lived with....something I have always tried to unveil its secrets...something I have always tried restraint its desire...something that you always need to live yet you always fight it....It is my soul...
I felt that this picture that Allah painted with his creatures resembles so much that thing that He decided not to inform us about yet it is inside us...as if He wanted us to always know how incomplete our mind is that it can't even analyze what is operating it....
These clouds....that was once white and bright...now it is dark...fighting the light that wants to survive....exactly as my soul when it begins dragging me into dark thoughts....dragging me into sadness and madness....dragging me into frustration from just bearing these ideas in my mind...but out there....behind the clouds...there is that ray of light...coming from the pure instinct that our Creator put it in every person....in criminals and in saints.....in young and in old....in men and in women.....that pure instinct is what always remind you that there is a way...a way out of the darkness.....a way that you should search around to find......
Then that ray.....falls down on the wavy surface of the water....as if it is guiding you there....guiding you to the unknown destiny...guiding you to what is below that calm surface...exactly as when your instinct guide you to something without a reason....something that most of the time you don't know what is behind it.... what is below it...but magically you know that this is the way.....this is the right way that you would choose to go to......it is like a moment where you see the future with your heart.......
Then I hear that beautiful song....that beautiful music that don't use instruments....that beautiful sound that gives you illogical hope.....hope that all of these beauty was there for a reason.....our Creator didn't choose to teach birds to sing at sunset just for them to folk and go home....our Creator made these birds arrange that inspiring symphony to let us know that despite of that darkness you will see...a new day still there to come....new day still there for us to choose....new day for us to know and love....
these songs are exactly like the small things that you see around you ,when your soul is dark, that reminds you of the beauty of the light.....these small gestures of the universe telling you that everything is created for you.....and yet you are not happy.....telling you that Allah have given you these eyes that can see these magnificent paintings of the nature just to make you feel happy...telling you that Allah gave you ears to listen to these wonderful words and sounds that make you feel happy....telling you that Allah , however darkness you can see in your life , have chosen you over all his creations.....to give you the greatest thing He made....to give you intellect...
if you can't feel happy with all of that.......if all of that can't give you hope that that Creator will never let you down...if all of that can't make you know that whatever darkness you are in...He will always lead you to the way of light.......then who else in the universe will know that............
Now the clouds are getting darker...the light is fading and the birds songs are moving farther....and I am still looking to the calm surface of the water....that feels more mysterious.....should I follow my heart? should I believe in my destiny? should I know that whatever down there......is the best thing since that what Allah chose for me..........or just wait until it's all dark and I can't even find my way to my destiny..........
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